Five Year Plans.
Aug. 12th, 2022 07:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coffeedaivMy love has one. My dear friend has one (or at least, has referred to one, recently). And it has come up in other contexts, many times.
I don't have one. I don't really plan that far in advance, because... I cannot.
I was about to go into a long review of the last thirty odd years of Not Planning, with examples of how my "Plans" get overturned by Events. And how that corresponds to my current state of "My life is mostly okay, but there is a lot going on for people I love and I don't know how to plan my life around impending Things."
I am better than I was. I have set up my bank stuff so rent comes out of each paycheck, and sits peacefully gathering interest until rent comes due, with backups. I likewise have all my bills paid. I have fresh food on a weekly basis and am a sufficiently regular customer at the farmers market that they Know My Name (some of them, anyway; the Salad and Bacon dealer, certainly, and the Cheese Lady, and the Egg Guy).
And if all goes well, I am going to California to see Mom in September. Also, probably, Brother Joe, and, I hope, some combination of Sister in Law and up to two awesome nephews.
Of course, this is one of those things. Mom is ... well, 85ish? and Joe wants her to sell her house and move closer to him, and there is all kinds of brotherly stuff going on around that (which is an entry unto itself, and I still have to finish my coffee and get ready for work).
I don't really have plans, on that scale. I have some level of If (when) / Then Statements. Which is maybe a more useful model for me, come to think of it. Less anxiety inducing.
Just as long as I don't call it a Plan.
I don't have one. I don't really plan that far in advance, because... I cannot.
I was about to go into a long review of the last thirty odd years of Not Planning, with examples of how my "Plans" get overturned by Events. And how that corresponds to my current state of "My life is mostly okay, but there is a lot going on for people I love and I don't know how to plan my life around impending Things."
I am better than I was. I have set up my bank stuff so rent comes out of each paycheck, and sits peacefully gathering interest until rent comes due, with backups. I likewise have all my bills paid. I have fresh food on a weekly basis and am a sufficiently regular customer at the farmers market that they Know My Name (some of them, anyway; the Salad and Bacon dealer, certainly, and the Cheese Lady, and the Egg Guy).
And if all goes well, I am going to California to see Mom in September. Also, probably, Brother Joe, and, I hope, some combination of Sister in Law and up to two awesome nephews.
Of course, this is one of those things. Mom is ... well, 85ish? and Joe wants her to sell her house and move closer to him, and there is all kinds of brotherly stuff going on around that (which is an entry unto itself, and I still have to finish my coffee and get ready for work).
I don't really have plans, on that scale. I have some level of If (when) / Then Statements. Which is maybe a more useful model for me, come to think of it. Less anxiety inducing.
Just as long as I don't call it a Plan.
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